Sunday, September 14, 2014

I Miss Robin Williams

Licensed insanity.....
A fan missing Robin Williams

Licensed insanity. This is how Robin Williams described himself using Mike Myers words on "In The Actors Studio". During that interview, it was nearly impossible to ask him a single question without his signature comedic funniness going on a 20 minute laugh filled rant.

I remember watching that show, and being completely amazed at his ability to pull laughter and humor out of complete thin air.

I think what Robin had that no other comedian could ever touch, was the ability to take on a role of a comedic magician.

Pulling the proverbial rabbit from out of a hat, only to have it baptized by a comedic genius in a sort of crazy ta-da that only he could conjure. I think my favorite part of that entire interview was when he saw the upside-down aviator wings, he annoyed the crap out of that guy but also made him laugh, even when he didn't want to.

On "Who's Line is it", it was again just pure laughter. He seemed to have an almost no holds barred addiction to making laughter just roll out from his seemingly talented ability to not only work a crowd, but work with a single word or gesture. The humor of that show was as spontaneous as Rohin and he seemed to revile in it.

Robin Williams will forever be my most beloved comedian, and favorite actor of all time. He wasn't just funny, he wasn't just a great actor, he was an inspiration, and in a way, a healer.

I can't begin to tell you just how many times when I was in a bind, or facing a dark time in my life when I would pull out his "Live on Broadway" DVD and laugh my ass off until I barely could remember my issues, or problems. He erased the sadness in my life so many times, and brought in light when nothing else could.

Robin was my medication, my dose of reality in a inswallowable analgesic funny pill. It makes me wonder if his humor was his own medication too, that maybe having a camera in front of him made his world better. Because to learn that he fought depression seemed impossible to me. I mean, how can someone so funny be depressed? How could someone capable of pulling me out from under a rock be sad inside? I cried when I learned he passed, a small piece of me died inside, simply because he was to me the cure for depression.

Robin Williams was my hero, my antidepressant, and one of my idols. His humor was contagious and unrelenting just as much as his ability to create a sort of personal world for just himself to thrive in, on stage or on camera, he seemed to flip a switch and everything would just come flowing out. Nothing seemed sacred, nothing was untouchable, and when he was serious, he left you guessing, waiting for his version of seriousness to explode into laughter and insanity. That wait couldn't be more anticipated then when he did "One Hour Photo", a movie that not only was strange for him, but completely void of any of his trademark humor.

My list of Robin William movie favorites starts without any order, just by memory. I think one of the best movies he ever did was "Dead Poets Society", where I think he should have won an Oscar, not just a nomination. "Good Morning, Vietnam" is a classic example of his ability to render seriousness and then tear it down with a parade of laughter and funniness that exuded in a heart felt way only he could let out.

"What Dreams May Come", is another example of how great Robin Williams was at acting and turning what should be pure sadness into pure enlightenment and happiness. He made me shed a tear and then smile wide in this one.

"Jakob the Liar" was one of those movies where he could be the only choice to play the part. I loved this movie so much, not just for the nostalgic rendering of what Jews endured, but the need for laughter even in times where there was no hope.

His career spanned decades, but the laughter he created will live forever. Robin Williams was the master of finding the funny in the sad, and shining the light of the obvious through a way of making fun of it. He took something that people were afraid to talk about and broke down the walls of silence by making it ok to laugh again. His ability to make us laugh after 9-11 showed how he could heal not just one person, but an entire nation, perhaps the world.

Robin made fun of presidents, politics, social issues, sex, and the stupidity of others by distracting the seriousness of something and reminding us that it's ok to be human. It's OK to laugh when you shouldn't, it's ok to face hard facts with a smile, it's ok to find the humor in something where humor is needed but ignored.

I never knew the man, I didn't have the chance. I have no idea who he was when the cameras were off and the crowds went away, but I can imagine he didn't stop being funny, maybe slowed down a bit, maybe, I have no idea. All I know is, his passing broke my heart.

The world lost a treasure trove of laughter. Perhaps the only person capable of making a man like Russian President Vladimir Putin laugh. I mean if Robin could have become President, perhaps Russia would be our friend by now. Maybe.

The point is, Robin was capable of finding the funny button on someone and not only push it, but stand on it. It was that ability that he carried that nobody else will ever be able duplicate. He was relentless and never tired, once he got a laugh from you, he seemed to be able to process your request for more and fulfill it no matter what the cost to his own preservation.

Robin Williams was the atomic bomb of laughter and insanity. Much needed today as he was yesterday. I wish he knew that. I wish he knew how many lives he touched, or how many lives he perhaps saved with laughter.

I'm going to miss him.

Good luck heaven, I'm sure when he got to the pearly gates he had a line wanting autographs and 20 bookings waiting for him. If he went the other way, (joking) I'm sure he asked for sun tan lotion and made the proclamation, "You call that a pitchfork?" Where ever he is, he makes it brighter and funnier.

Goodbye Robin. You weren't just loved and appreciated, you were needed and wanted by more people than I think you knew. To a man that shined light into my once dark world, Robin Williams, I love you man! I'll be looking you up when I get to the other side, because I'm sure I'll need a dose of your humor when I get there!!!


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